growl

Travis called me today and told me when he was expected to come home, but we didnt get to talk for very long so I dont know if he leaving Kuwait on that date or if he is due in the states on that date. CONFUSING AND FRUSTRATING!!?!? Of course I cant get ahold of him, so Im getting even more frustrated and irritable. I have been growing more and more irritable lately, but thats just because I am getting anxious to see Trav and my emotions are running high. DEAL WITH IT! Just let me be with my husband for those sweet 18 days, and I guarantee I will be as playful as a kitten and as lovable as a puppy dog. I WANT HIM HOME NOW!!!! This is not going to be a very good blog tonight, so I apologize. I have been writing things for english class and already I'm sick of looking at this computer screen. *Gasp* I know..me...sick of a computer??!! NO WAY! Yes, I am afraid it is true. Must mean enough for today. Well you all take care and God Bless!

Love ya!
Sally

FORGOT

We had to put the adoption on a hold due to unforseen issues. This decision was a very heartbreaking one for me and Travis. We really had our hearts set on becoming mommy and daddy. Travis was looking forward to coming home to his son or daughter. We praise God though, even through this tuff time. We know that He is preparing us for something really big. I have a feeling, a strong spiritual feeling that our time to parent is coming up. I am not sure when, but I am sure it is coming. This life is all about Faith, Family, and Friends. We need to have faith in God that He will give us what we need. We will be parents, and I speak this in Faith.

In Him,
The Moser's

BLABBER!

I am officially a college student! I am taking two courses right now, and I couldn't be more excited! I am a little concerned as to how this will work out when Travis comes home for R&R. I am not too worried though, because I know that God will take care of it, and He will make a way for me to enjoy the time with my husband and take care of my school! I already had to take a couple of quizzes and one test. I also have somewhat of a big assignment due as well! I get to do homework again...I am really excited! I missed being in school. Why didnt I do this sooner??! I am taking English Comp. 1 and Basic Algebra. Dont laugh...you forget mathematics if you dont keep up with them! I have been out of school over 7 years now, give me a break! I am all prepared for late night study sessions, last minute assignments, and all the cool stuff. I just finished a good workout on the bowflex, which is always a good thing. I can listen to my IPOD and work out, which is really motivating for me. Speaking of the IPOD, does anyone else have a problem with the earbuds not staying in the ear? The opening in my left ear must be slightly different than that of my right ear, because the earbud keeps falling out of my left ear and its very irritating to say the least. Travis comes home soon, and I am THOROUGHLY excited about that. I cannot wait to see him and for him to see me. I hope I look better than when he left. I have been working out, so maybe. I still havent managed to sell our Grand Prix. I have had several calls on it, but nobody has actually come out to look at it yet. BUMMER! I want to get that thing sold so we can save money for moving next year. There is so much we have to do before then. God will take care of it, no need for me to sweat the big stuff right? RIGHT! Well, thats enough rambling for now. Love ya and God Bless!

~Sally

Thoughts, dreams, feelings, faith...

I miss Travis like crazy right now. You would think that as time progresses to his coming home, that I would grow more and more excited. While I am growing more and more excited....I am also getting really ancy and irritable. Is this normal? Hmmph...who knows? Call me psycho...but deployments/R&R's/block leaves/exodus's/redployments/etc. are all very emotionally challenging, are they not? I do love being an army wife, even though there are stereotypes that come along with that title, however....this life is testing. You can make and break relationships in a heartbeat, you can laugh and cry instantaneously (sometimes at the same time), and the lonliness is very overwhelming. I am counting down the days to when I get to find out exactly when Travis returns. I pray for patience and peace of mind, because both seem to be far from me lately. School starts on Monday, and believe it or not, I am thoroughly excited about that. I am anxious to re-learn Algebra and English. Scary thought though, considering I haven't been in school in over 7 years. *Yikes* One wonders where the time flies, huh? Moving to Deutschland will be a task as well. Managing school, a HUGE move, trying to plan a family and all that jazz.....I say bring it on. If Jesus is for us, who can be against us, right? AMEN! I hope Germany has an infertility clinic, so Travis and I can continue our treatment. Having to put the adoption on hold was a really hard decision for both of us to make, considering all the time and money that was put into it in such a short amount of time. We want this to happen naturally for us. Not because adoption isnt for us...simply because the financial burden can be spread over 18 years, not all at once! believe me, we were READY for a baby....didnt matter how we got it. RIght now though, we pray for God to bless both of our bodies and let us create our own child and SOON! There we go with that patience thing again....sheesh. Some people call me crazy for doing what I do, saying what I say, believing what I believe, and so on. You know what I say? You can call me crazy all you want to people...because to be perfectly sane must be a bore. Who is perfectly sane anyway? I am so sorry to disappoint some of you, but God didnt make anyone perfect in body or mind. Insanity rests within all of us, at least I am willing to admit to mine at times. I had this really weird dream last night about Native Americans doing spiritual dances and it was actually quite cool. DId you know that each movement in a dance is telling part of a story? Like the native Hawaiian dances. My dreams are often very spiritual. I notice that after a really tough day, my dreams are peaceful and God councils me and ministers to me through my dreams. However, after a pretty good day my dreams are usually pretty scary in nature...testing my faith...which can be unnerving. I have a lot on my mind right now. I miss my family back home something awful, but I miss my husband more. I cant wait for the day I get to see him...but I know I have to wait. I want him to hold me, hug me, kiss me, squeeze me, and look into my eyes and tell me how much he loves me. Somehow, whenever I am in a mood or have an attitude....Travis makes it all better. There is nothing better than the sound my true loves' voice, telling me everthing is going to be ok!

God Bless!

Sally