Monday, October 20, 2008

All over the place.....

Things are going alright these days. I am still very frustrated with our internet service because it goes in and out nearly every 5 minutes, and that worries me for when its time to take online classes. I am not sure if its our computer or the ISP itself...either way it needs to be fixed. I made an appointment with a fertility doctor because I dont feel like waiting on the army hospital here to take its sweet time getting me a referral and my biological clock is not getting any younger. I see him for a consult next wednesday and I am excited and praying that 1.) I get information I need 2.) It is not a ridiculous amount of money and 3.) That this doc and his staff can actually help us achieve a live birth or 2..or 3. Travis has had a lot of responsibility laid on him at this new unit, for someone who was so obviously not ready for it as per his last unit...but thats a whole other cup of tea. This new unit has even recommended him for a good conduct medal as well as sending him to the board to get his E-5. He has been doing a lot of staff duty and other silly details, but he is an outstanding soldier and does what he is told. Lately I feel as though I have been doing a lot of complaining....and I know I have. I have complained about Germany, the people here, housing, transportation, my husband, myself, the computer, the internet, cell phones, our car....whatever. I am so sorry that it has been that way. I am super homesick and not even having the conveniences I am used to is really taking its toll on me. I am a strong person, but it will take a few more months to fully adapt to life outside of the states. I cant wait for our household goods to arrive because all I want is my own comfy couch and bed. I miss going to church and its having a major affect on me spiritually. I need God so much in my life and I need to be around others who love Him as much as I do and its so hard feeling like the only true Christian amongst a bunch of people who go out partying, swearing up a storm, gossiping, and doing God knows what else. I feel so drained sometimes and I cant even clear my mind enough to pray the way I need to. My soul needs restored and my flesh is very weak right now. I have been praying for a new church to go to, and God will tarry for me. The cats are doing well, they have adjusted but miss sleeping on their couch and walking on carpet, lol. They will lay on the floor and get up almost 10 minutes later, they miss the comfy fuzzy carpet under their bodies. They love bird watching here, and because there are so many birds, the girls go nuts!! We are coming up on the anniversary of losing our baby, and it still tears me up inside when I think about it, but really I am at peace overall. God has plans and its not in His will for me to be all knowing about why things happen in my life. Each other, family, minor conveniences, God, church, babies, and our household goods are really what we want right now and then I think the whining will die down. Until then, we are working on it. Thanks for reading and as always, God Bless!!

~Sally and Travis