Wednesday, June 22, 2011

So much to do and so little...time?

We have received word that our orders to leave Germany will be available for pick-up on Monday.  What an exciting feeling; knowing we are mere weeks away from being with our families and friends stateside!  At the same time, I know I will be sad leaving my family here in Baumholder.  To my fellow preggo sisters (now mommies), to my very dear sisters who have seen me at my worst, my church family, and just the Army family in general.  I have posted about this before, so I won't repeat myself.  This big move means we have to arrange our house into categories, which can be a bit difficult if you have little bits and pieces scattered every which way.  Hand carried, HHG, UB, ship ahead, documents, donate, trash.  Our house looks like the entire contents have been strewn about...which they have. I even have to separate TJ's toys, what to store vs. what to take/ship to Granana's house.  My little man deserves his favorite playthings.  I am very overwhelmed at the moment, so to me it seems that I have too much to do and not enough time.  I want to have my house organized for when the movers get here so they can pack things with as little hassle as possible.  I am one frazzled mama bear.  My poor guitar has been neglected for the better part of a year...poo ol' blue.  I know I have been busy being a mom and what not, but the reality is that I just don't make time for her anymore.  That is wrong of me.  I know when I am done with the stresses as of late, I will be better and MAKE time for her. 

In other words, I have felt myself start to disconnect from my friends here in Germany.  This is what every single time we move....I don't know if it is because it makes saying "goodbye" easier or what.  I love my friends here so much.  I am going to miss you all!!  I know I am not the phone talker and I don't call every day but I cherish each of you and keep you close to my heart.

I am happy to announce that yours truly has been awarded her AS degree!!  I am so excited about it; I have worked long and hard for this.  I am waiting for it to arrive in the mail, and I truly hope it gets here before we leave.  When we get back stateside, I am going to go to school and probably get my nursing degree.  It is going to be a LOT of work, but I will be helping people and that is something I want to do.  COLLEGE HO!!!

This post is just a quick update on things and obviously a bit of jumbled mess as I am all over the place....surely my english report professor would be proud.  At any rate, more to come when I have news!  Ciao loved ones!

SJ

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

A New Chapter Begins....

As some of you may know, our time with the military is coming to an end.  It is not the ending we imagined or hoped for, but does anything ever really happen the way we imagine?  Travis and I have built our whole lives around the Army and we are sad to be leaving, yet proud to have been a part of it.  God has His own plans for our lives and they include finally being with our family and friends after so many years of separation.  It is time for TJ to be with his grandparents, cousins, aunts, and uncles.  It is time for me to finally learn to sew like my gramma and my husband to learn car mechanics from my dad.  We will never forget the friends, who are more like family, that we have made while in the military.  There is something about a military community that outsiders just don't understand.  There is an instant bond between spouses and children of soldiers, connections that can last a lifetime.  My son has many surrogate aunts that will forever be a part of his life and hold a piece of his heart.  My husband has friends he will be able to reminisce with for years to come.  I have sisters who I know I will able to call after years of no communication, and we will be able to pick up right where we left off.  This will not be an easy transition for our family, but I am thankful that God is there to soothe any bumps and bruises along the way.

To my Army family, thank you for being there for me through everything.  Sometimes we fought and didn't see eye to eye, but in the end I knew that we would be friends for a long time.  To my Army sisters who have made a lifelong imprint on my heart, and you know who you are, I fully expect to be kept in the loop!  Thank you to the seasoned spouses who helped me learn to adapt to Army life.  I never would have made it through my first month long separation from my husband if it weren't for you.  Thank you to the installations we had the privilege to call home; and to the installation where I gave birth to my son.  How many other kids can say, "I was born in a military hospital in Germany?"  Thank you to the soldiers for your never ending sacrifice, especially the wounded warriors. Not many know your pains, but I do.  I have seen them first hand.  Your sacrifices are not in vain.  Most importantly, thank you to MY soldier.  SGT Moser, you are the  most selfless person I know.  You endured loss, mental and physical anguish, betrayal, dishonor, and disrespect...yet you pressed toward the mark.  You are such an inspiration to me, I have no words.  I look at you and stand in awe of all you have accomplished in your life.  I don't regret a single moment with you; you are one of the best things that has happened to me.  I love that you love God.  You keep me smiling even when I don't want to.  You lift me up when all I want to do is crawl under a rock.  You have taken this transition so well and you do it with pride and honor.  I know you are losing a lot more than I am, yet you never waiver nor falter.  You remain as steadfast as any Roman statue.  I love you Travis, with every fiber of my being.  TJ is so in love with you; you are his soldier daddy.  Our little boy looks up to you in a way that makes other fathers envy you.  Not only are you America's Hero, but you are our own personal hero.  Thank you for your selfless service and sacrifice.

This has been one great ride, and I am grateful to have had the opportunity to be part of it.  It is time for this mama bear and her family to go wherever the good Lord decides!

Army Wife for Life.
Sally