Since my last post, our family has endured even more changes and I find myself struggling to be at peace with the situation. We will be fostering two of our family members in the coming months. I cannot tell you how much it breaks my heart all the things these kids have had to endure. When I think about everything they have gone through, I get angry. I get angry because they were never allowed to be the kids they should have been, I get angry because innocence has been ripped away from them, I get angry because the one person who should have protected them, failed them instead. I had a job that I was really good at and I was very happy there. I have made the decision to leave my job so I can take care of the children that will soon be in our home. Money will once again be tight, but I know that I am doing the right thing for these kids. I only pray to God above that HE will make a way when there seems to be no way, and I know HE will. I miss my job, I've been gone for nearly a week and I miss it. Granted, it wasn't always the greatest job in the world, but it was something I was good at and helping other people is important to me. I struggled for awhile in deciding whether or not to leave (as it turns out, I would have lost my job anyway from taking too many days off). These kids are going to need a lot of attention, a lot of gentle discipline, and a lot of help in learning to cope with things that have gone in their short lives. TJ is ecstatic because he is going to have constant playmates who love him immensely as he does them. T and I are very happy to open our home to them, we feel this is where they belong. We have such a long way to go before our home will be ready. A room to build, walls/ceilings to paint, beds to get, windows to install, and our Foster Care license. Times are going to be tuff, but I don't believe it will last forever. We can nix the unnecessary things, which means this may be the last blog I post from home for awhile. Things haven't been working out at T's job, and I have felt it necessary to step in and try to be his advocate. How are you going to put someone in a position, promise them the job is theirs, just to give that title to someone else....who knows NOTHING about the industry? God will work something out, He has to...He promised us He would. We have had more life changing news, but I am not ready to talk about it yet. Please keep us in your prayers, we could really use all the help we can get.
Thanks and God Bless.
~Sally
