For my heart...I love you and I miss you!

For all of our guys!

Learning....

So I am learning. I am learning that I need to to put more faith in people, Jesus, and myself. I am leaning how hard life really is when there is only me in this house. I am learning that the Lord has timing that only He can determine. I am learning that I really do need to put forth more effort to acheive my goals in life. I am still growing and learning, spiritually. I am still of this flesh, so I am tempted every day to do wrong. I am still learning how to deal with this deployment, so there are days that I do not handle it very well at all. I am still learning about children, and how challenging they really can be when NOTHING calms them down. I feel that Jesus is really wanting me to learn more and lean more towards His way rather than mine. It is funny the things you can think about when given the time and the fact that there is nothing else to do. Praise God, for He is without fault and will ALWAYS be there for you (and me!).

I miss Travis. I have been able to speak with him at least 3 or 4 times per week, which is fine with me. I am learning that making a marriage work, over the phone, is a daunting task but well worth the end result. It is hard when either of us is having a bad day, and we try to understand what the other is going through. Neither of us want to tell the other what is wrong because we dont want to worry, but we cannot help but ask because we care and want to be there for eachother. Aside from God, Travis is my everything and there isnt much I wouldnt do for him.

I am just learning about love, life, children, Jesus...and myself. Thanks!
~Sally

Times a changin'

Hey everyone. The title of this post really fits my mood. I have once again chopped my hair, contrary to that of my old beliefs, and I say old because my religious views are changing. There are still some beliefs that I will holdfast to, but there are little things here and there that I am changing my mind about. I still believe that Jesus is God (because there is no denying it), I dont wear any jewelry except for my wedding band (because there is no need to sparkle with gold or diamonds when I sparkle with the spirit of the Lord from within), and I still believe in water baptism in the name of Jesus (because Jesus is the name of the Son, the Father, and the Holy Ghost). Wearing skirts every day, never wearing makeup, not ever cutting/trimming my hair. These are things that I am reconsidering. I still consider myself a very religious person, but why is Jesus so worried with what I wear as long as I dont look like a hooker? I get the idea of wearing skirts, but God looks within my heart and sees that I am a forgiven sinner. Will wearing a pair of pants really put me in the same place as someone who commits murder or adultery? I know our God is loving, but he is just and he passes judgement unto those who havent listened to His word. I am attending a non-denominational church. I really like it because they do not condemn other beliefs and they dont brag or boast about being faithful. I have been forgiven of my sins, I am a new creature in Christ and I still have to repent every day for the sins I do. Nobody is perfect. Will being a sinner and wearing nothing but skirts and long sleeve shirts make me look better in Jesus' eyes than if I were committing the same sins and wearing pants? A sin is a sin is a sin. There is no way around it. I do not doubt that Jesus wants us to hold true to the 10 commandments, and the Bible says if you break one you break them all. Sure, its not all about how we look but how we act inside and out. I think as we get older we tend to look at religion more analytically than we should. It is very simple, read the Bible, get saved, and ask Jesus to guide you and He will! You know right from wrong. It doesnt matter if your parents taught you or not. At some point in your life you will realize that that icky feeling you get when you are doing something you ought not to.....that is the Lord letting you know that you need to think about the choices you are making. Repent and be baptized in Jesus name. Put all of your faith in Him. He loves us all, and He doesnt want any of us to perish in eternal hell. I am begging for forgiveness every night....I cry in church every week because it is SO HARD to live for God in this day and age. We are too obsessed with money, materialistic things, and whether or not people like us. Well, I got news for you (and for myself). Money wont buy your name in the Book of life, you cannot bring your precious prada bag with you or your big 4 bedroom house into Heaven (or Hell) with you, and it is not other people that are going to pass judgment over you in the End of Days. Now I know that I have no room to talk, I am a sinner myself. I am just coming to the realization of things. Maybe its not as important for me to get that extra sleep, and wake up and go to church. Maybe I can spare that extra money and pay my tithes instead of spending it on an expensive lunch. I'm doing some serious soul searching, and some serious praying about where my life is headed. I would rather make it to Heaven and be with Jesus and have no friends here on earth to speak of than to be the most popular and beautiful person loved by people everywhere and end up going to hell. I dont know. Im praying for myself and for everyone I know and dont know. God Bless.

~Sally